Chapter 28: Rock vs. Sand

I remember reading this scripture and wanting to write about it.

3 Nephi 14:24-27

24 Therefore, whoso heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, who built his house upon a rock--

25 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat upon that house; and it fell not, for it was founded upon a rock.

26 And every one that heareth these sayings of mind and doeth them not shall be likened unto a foolish man, who built his house upon the sand--

27 And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell, and great was the fall of it.

I was on sand for a long time. Rain came, floods came, the winds blew and I fell. And great was my fall. I can tell you that sand will not help you. You will sink. I became weak and gave into those weak feelings. The feelings were horrible. I wasn't prepared because I didn't build myself upon a rock.

After the storm, I had to get up. And there was a moment when I was able to do that. Not by myself, but from the help of another. It was unexpected, but it was a moment I needed. The Lord was truly looking out for me at this time.

Now I am rebuilding and this time, on a rock. No more sand. By building on a rock I will be able to withstand the storms and I won't have to rebuild myself every time they come. I'll be able to suffer through them and come out with a smile. And I'll be able to turn to others and stay strong.

Like the primary song says: "The wise man built his house upon a rock.....the foolish man built his house upon the sand".

Are you foolish or wise?

Chapter 27: People Who Make Me Smile

After my Zumba class today I wanted to go to CVS to pick up a few things I needed. It's nice to go in the morning because there aren't a lot of people. When I was checking out, the cash register guy was just saying how it's going to be raining all day and asked if I was ready for it. Just simple conversation. I mentioned how I have a midterm today and he was asking me when those are over. Midterms already? One he rang me up and I paid he told me to have a nice day and good luck (I guess for the midterm). It wasn't anything big, but that guy at CVS made me really happy and started my day well. Thank you.

The whole weekend was quite interesting. Well really the whole week. But I have been extremely blessed and even amongst the down feelings, I have felt so much love around me.

My friends here in Boston mean the world to me. I am trying to be a better friend and follow their examples. Even when I am having not the greatest time, they are there for me and still spend time with me. They make me laugh. I even had a friend notice when I wasn't doing so great and they asked me if I were okay. Thank you. They also asked if I wanted to talk about it. That meant a lot to me because it meant that they cared. Thank you.

I was also really blessed because after dinner at the church I decided to take the T home by myself rather than wait and get a ride home. I just wasn't feeling up to it. I got back to my apartment and just felt so blah. Yesterday was so odd. Later in the night though I got many text messages from friends. Two in particular made me smile. I guess I realize that I am doing what's right in my life and really looking for something to lift me up when I am down. The Lord knew what I needed and when I needed it. I just had to have patience. Thank you.

So I guess this chapter is saying that there are many little things in life that can make us smile. More specifically there are people who really care and they will be there for you when you need. And they will surprise you often and help you without even realizing it. So remember to say: Thank You.

Chapter 26: Runaway Girl

I apologize for not writing in a long time. I just haven't sat down and blogged. I have written in my journal though which is a plus. Lately I've been a little down, I'll admit it. Of course I am looking to change this, because who wants to be down all the time? Not me. I decided that I wanted to share a little bit about running. I haven't really been running in awhile. Over winter break I went a couple times outside and it was AMAZING. It makes me really excited for Summer. Now that I am back in Boston I haven't ran outside because it's so cold and in the beginning of the semester it was super icy. That and I guess I am a wimp.

I decided to give myself a challenge this semester. I don't have an exact goal, but I could make it right now I guess. My challenge is the mile challenge. Each Tuesday I time myself for a mile run, and so far.....I am very happy. I started timing myself on Tuesday January 25th in which I had the time 7:23.07. I didn't think that was too bad, but of course I really wanted to get my time down lower. So after each week, I improved. The first week I ran on Thursday as well and knocked off about 7 seconds. It only got better. Today I timed myself and my time is now down to 6:49.31. I am very happy with that time, although it's only one second faster than my time last week. That's okay though. I am improving and I knew I would hit a plateau eventually. I just love running.

Another reason I want to write about running is because a friend of mine read a chapter of my thoughts and discovered that I don't just run for the health aspect of it. It's true. I run a lot from life I guess. And there have been times when I am not very happy so I go for a run. I don't listen to the typical pump up music, but I listen to songs that make me think. Sometimes I don't listen to any music. And the more I think about running, the more I think I need to make sure I run more and more. My life is only getting harder, so why not run to make it a little easier?

And after thinking about running, one day I wrote a song. Well lyrics to a song I guess. I'll share them with you. I might not be the most talented person in a lot of areas, but I try. And I don't really care too much about what people think (I do care a lot though), so I figure why not do the things that make me happy.

I run.

Running (title unknown)

Running from the world I'm living in

Going through a battle that I'm gonna win.

I'm no longer looking back at the past,

But moving forward with a pace so fast.

Everytime I run my thoughts are so clear

Clear in the night and clear in the day.

I know that I no longer want to be here,

So I run, run, run away.

Running from the life I used to know

To go somewhere else to learn and grow,

And when I feel like I don't belong,

I'll keep running until I feel strong.

Everytime I run my thoughts are so clear

Clear in the night and clear in the day.

I know that I no longer want to be here,

So I run, run, run away.

Instead of worrying about what I should have done,

I'm going to RUN.